I
continue to be grateful to the church I serve, for allowing me a 4-month
Sabbatical in 2017. This week, I looked
back at my journal from that time. On
one of the early days of my time away from the church, searching for a passage
to be a theme verse for the Sabbatical, I stopped at Matthew 10:38, “Those who find their life will lose it,
and those who lose their life for my sake will find it.”
Jesus
here, and in other passages, talks about this idea of dying to self. At our
church, the three foundational pillars of ministry philosophy are safe space,
to be made new, and sent into the world. The “safe” pillar is our commitment to being
a welcoming community that loves people “as they are.” We say, “All are welcome.”
The “sent”
pillar is our commitment to carrying the good news of salvation in Jesus Christ
to a lost and hurting world. When we
think of the term ‘evangelical,’ we do not have in mind how you vote or what
your politics are. We mean evangelistic
people, people who go out into the world motivated to help people they meet
become followers of Jesus.
The
middle pillar, “be made new,” is where I lived during the Sabbatical. It is what I think is happening in Matthew
10:38 when Jesus commends losing one’s life.
One of the things I have heard from people a lot is this question. Can I
follow Jesus and still be my “whole self?”
The answer from Jesus is “No, you can’t.” Jesus promises to love us as we are, but when
we follow Him, we do not remain as we are.
We don’t come to Jesus hoping to be our “full selves.” When we come to Jesus and follow Jesus, we die
to self.
I have
relearned the depths of this concept over and over in my own life as a
Christ-follower. As a thoughtless
college student whose brash words hurt others, I had to repent and apologize to
those I hurt. That repentance included
dying to self. When I was single, badly
wanting to be married, I had to learn to be content in Christ. In my marriage as significant challenges have
arisen, both my wife and I have had to be humble before God and each other and
this included dying to self. In the
privilege of leading a church, HillSong, that is full of strong leaders who
will not sycophantically bow to the lead pastor’s will, I have to constantly die
to self.
In this
past Sunday’s sermon, I talked about Daniel who refused to let his Babylonian
overseers dictate his identity. In their
hands, he did not allow himself to be unmade.
I hope that as I unfolded the story of Daniel’s boldness, it was not
lost that at a deeper level, Daniel and each one of us is in fact clay to be
molded, just not the world’s hands. We
are in God’s hands and God stretches us, pounds us, hardens us, and shapes
us. Mixing metaphors, we also realize
God prunes us, a painful process, but for our good. Sometimes we don’t understand the creator’s
work, but we are the creatures. We
submit to His will not because it is easy but because it is good. There are no self-made men or women in the
Kingdom of Heaven, only God-made men and God-made women.
Are you
ready for this kind of life, one lived in absolute submission to the will of
God? Are we prepared to answer the call
to be disciples of Jesus? Read Paul’s
letters. The disciple life is full of
joy and wonder. But, read all the
letters, including 2 Timothy.
The disciple life includes weary days, uncertain seasons, and disciples
sometimes have long nights. No, we don’t
say to Jesus, “Take me as I am.” We say,
“You, Jesus, are the Lord, the Savior, the Master. Here I am.
Make me what you will. Show me
who you will create me to be.”
Almost 4
months removed from Sabbatical, I am grateful I went back and looked at the
Sabbatical journal, which directed me back to Jesus’ words in Matthew 10. My prayer now is the same as it was back in
May. Lord,
here I am. Make me your New Creation. I hold this prayer up not just for me, but
for anyone who would follow Jesus as a part of the church I lead.
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