I read a
title by a theologian or Bible scholar, someone like John Dominic Crossan, Bart
Ehrman, or Geza Vermes, all scholars who write extensively about the New
Testament and about Jesus. Each doubts
or outright denies the bodily resurrection of Jesus. Each in different ways respects Jesus, but
none of these or many others think Jesus really, truly rose from the grave into
a body that would live eternally. I read
the works of these and others, and I get upset.
I feel my faith is under attack and I need to defend it.
Why?
I think the simple answer is this
stuff matters to me. By “stuff,” I mean
the Gospel. My life is built upon
proclaiming that God is real. God chose
Israel as God’s particular people through whom God would reach the world, which
had fallen away from God in sin – original sin and perpetual inevitable repetition
of sin. God fulfilled all promises to
Israel when God came to earth in the form of a human, a Jew, Jesus of
Nazareth. Jesus lived a sinless life,
died on the cross for the sins of the world, rose from death, ascended, and
sent his Sprit to his followers. All who
give their lives to Him and spend their lives following him will spend eternity
with him in the eternal Kingdom of God, the joining of renewed Heaven and
renewed Earth.
I believe all of this. I feel like my choices in life are based on
all of this. My future and eternal
destiny depend on this. I don’t know who
I would be if this were not true. The
bodily resurrection of Jesus is essential in my belief. So, when I read a far more schooled writer,
like Vermes or Ehrman, and that author questions the core components of my
theology, I feel assaulted. If this
learned person is right, then who am I?
What has my life meant? Have the
last 25 years been a waste? I became a
Christ-follower at 11. I heard God call
me into pastoral ministry at 20. I am
now 44. Has my life been a lie?
I don’t think so. But when I read the works from critical scholars
that say, no, Jesus wasn’t really raised from death, that is just a spiritual truth, then I
have to step back. I want to read
honestly. Reading honestly requires that
I give consideration to the arguments scholars make. Of course, I find the cases made by N.T.
Wright, Mike Licona, Douglas Groothuis and others to be more convincing. But Wright, Licona, and Groothuis believe
what I believe. So, am I convinced by
them? Or was my mind already made up and
they gave me “proofs” that support what the conclusion I would have inevitably
drawn anyway. Is their thinking better
supported, a wiser analysis of the available evidence, a more logical theology
than that of scholars that drift toward heterodoxy, agnosticism, or even atheism?
I don’t know.
Here is what I do know. I know truth is really important. I am no relativist. I am, to a point, a pragmatist when it comes
to enforcing ethics, but just because I accept something as a reality (like
abortion) does not mean I think it is OK.
On abortion, pragmatically, I think it is here to stay as an option for
women. Fighting to make it illegal is
akin to a hamster on a wheel. The
destination will never be reached. Ethically,
I believe abortion is murder – the murder of a human being. I believe that to be true and I won’t waver
on that belief. Abortion is one of
countless issues that demand both unwavering truth and creative pragmatism in
how the truth is connected to practice in society. I have built my life on telling the truth (preaching
the Gospel).
Along these lines, I appreciate a
blog I recently encountered - http://valleygirlapologist.blogspot.com/. I became involved in a minor twitter spat
with the author of this blog, and I wish I had handled that differently. I don’t agree with everything she writes but
I understand her fierce commitment to the truth. An assault on truth is an assault on Jesus.
It thus makes sense that I would
have an emotional reaction when Ehrman or whoever makes such an assault. But pragmatically speaking, emotions don’t
help for a couple of reasons.
First, emotions do not help me think
clearly. O, Vermes is saying the resurrection didn’t happen! What?
The resurrection did not happen?
At this point, I am either mad at Vermes and I am retreating to N.T.
Wright so I can prove Vermes wrong. Or,
I am questioning everything I ever believed.
Neither is overly helpful. I need
to calm down, breathe deeply, and trust that Vermes is a scholar who is going
where his research has taken him. Even
if he wrote with an agenda, that’s between him and God. I need to be sophisticated as a reader that I
can engage with Vermes or whomever, and realize that my faith is intact. I am not under attack here. I am with someone whose believes differently
than me and has written what he or she believes and is giving reasons why. I need to think it all through thoroughly.
Second, I might learn
something. My own knowledge of God and
of the scriptures and of how theologians reach conclusions might expand and
mature. If I can listen to thinkers and
hear what they are saying and why they are saying, my own theological reasoning
will develop and deepen. If I cannot do
this, I will remain irrationally angry.
I won’t grow.
My hope in writing what I have here
is that I can come to recognize my own emotions as I read theological
works. Whether the authors are
fundamentalist evangelicals or liberal atheists or adherents to other faiths, I
want to be an intelligent, perceptive reader.
The eternal fate of the author is between that author and God. My own eternal faith is between God and
me. I am responsible to share the
Gospel. How I do that, my method, will
change and mature, will expand and improve, as I educate myself. So, I want to submit myself to theological
education with the names I have mentioned here and many others as my
teachers.
If you have thoughts about reading
theology, I would love to hear them either in the comments section, on
Facebook, or by emailing me directly.
well said but I think dogs have something to say....if you can't eat it and can't play with it, pee on it and just walk away. We have so much time to spend. In the movie God's not dead the student asks the professor ...."what happened to you?"...obviously that may be a caret Blanche statement but I think it is way more true than not and I wish I could go back and ask some of my professors and our professors that very same question. "Press on" bro.... Romans 3:4
ReplyDeleteThanks Jamie. Thanks for reading and engaging. And a lot of times when academic elites dismiss faith, it is from a place of deep pain that is disguised as objective research.
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